N0395 for Too fat to eat anything

Posted by Yuka as Hot Cities

I found that I was so fat that I must lose weight at once. There is so much flesh in my waist and it is very botchy when I am sitting without unbending my upside body. I did not eat too much today but I was extremelly full now which made me so affictive in my stomach. I have to drink much water to relieve the state though I am so reluctant. Maybe it is the motabolism to make trouble again. Zhang told me that it is bad for my body that not eat anything in evening but I would drink much water in fact. Today I found that I liked him much more than before but it is not a good new for me because I am not sure we will be together in the futrue and I must be continent with my reins. It is unfare to me and to him too so it is complex for us to deal with and we cant deal with it at all and time is the best medicine to deal with it. He also said to me that he would look out for a present to me for the new year, I was glad that rather he could think of me allthe time than I could to get the present. So I just give him a word “thank you”.

Just I had encountered a boy who once I liked very much and we had affection a period of time when I was on intimate terms with chen and just because of the conection with him we were ambivalent for a long time even we almost part each other though we parted at last but not because of him. I do not showed in QQ so he did not catch me easily. So he talked to me at once when I showed in QQ and suddenly he said that let us marry each other. I was puzzled though he always said that without mind. Then he said to me that some friends of his said that he would become a monster if he had no marriage untill now. it was fun to me though I requested him to marry me that time when I was unhappy because of zhang in a period of time. We may marry eache other if I really answered his request but I cant cause I always feel unhappy when I get together with him. One thing I remember absolutly clearly is that when I was in beidaihe as a guide to encounter him there then we ate a bowl of noodles each other and then he ate the noodles I left. We rode a double bycicle together happily in the laohushi park and we seated in the sand together in the beach chatting and playing. He backed me to the hotel and the second day I came back to my hotel for whats more there was a lady-killer who drank with me the day before that day in the hotel to waiting for me. I was indoctrinated and so angry that I had never drink outside when I went out as a tour guide except one time that I went to nei monggol which was the most aborted work since I had worked as a tour guide. Say much about him and I want to express that we have no future and I will not contact with or see him again though I liked him once but it was the past to me or to hin too.

We had a good day today with zhang and maybe I will not be lonely in the future. I always believe that he is a good man but he does not do good things and not go the itenarary as a good man. Maybe I am right or maybe I am wrong. Going by the wind…..