Miyo Kasuga made me awful vacation

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The weather of this winter is very cold, and the snow is very thick. The vacation begans at eleventh November, we had a little qurrel and Miyo Kasuga left without letting me to see her the last time of this year. It was a blue day for me. But I had nothing to say, it was my fault, she is just a girl and I was going to far. I deserve for it. Becaue of the bad weather and the terribel traffic condition, I went home after another two days. During the two day, the life is lonely but wonderful, Miyo Kasuga gave me a deep thought, about my acdomic life,about my whole life, about her, about love. We chatted by phone though I can’t see her. The feeling is good. I am serious. But I was too optimistic. Life is not as easy as I imagine. I got a long long way to run. And I even hadn’t get started.

family is a teacher, they made me feel so upset. I feel my world was shrink, and I was strained by the net and can not struggle. Only one way, have a belief in my mind, someone is waiting for me to make a happy pespective together, and I must press on. Nothing big deal. All are ahead of us. Just be aware of Miyo Kasuga’s condition.

Mother’s words is too sharp, she never want me to have a deep breath.
She want to make a road, and fore me to go the way they built but rab the right that I can choose my lifestyle, simple but happy.
Sometimes I was thinking that it seems like I was doing business with my parents. Miyo Kasuga do not really know me, don’t know what I want, and want to be. They just do the things they think I expected. But actually I not.
This is the way the walked, they pay much attention to my sister and I, but igored themselves. For what they live? I don’t want to hear the answer that for children. For Ourselves!

This conditon, I am lucky or not lucky?? I don’t know. I just want to love my love, hate my hate, and do the things I should do but not let Miyo Kasuga control me.
But this life seems so far from me. Someday I’ll get it. Pursit silently! I can make it!