Should I Live Alone?

Posted by Yuka as City Tokyo

I really can not bear three ladies live in a no-more-than-10- square meter house.
Two is already make me crasy, I tolerated, and tolerated,in the passed 3 months.

Now, I get angry. Because my dear roommate bring another girl leave in our house for a while!
Not long before she asked me whether I can accept it.

How can I say no? That girl have no other place to live! I really hate my life being disburbed more, but I cannot make a poor lady homeless.It is really a stupid question!

Shall I introduce my roommate? In order to make my friends understand my stupid sisuation?

It will be more like a gossip, because I really dislike her.

She is kind, weak,sensitive,special,…she does not understand English,so I write it in English. What a sly girl I am! In fact, although I write in chinese, she can’t understand me well.

For her physical reason, and some personality reason , I always have to speak twice or even more and I beg her pardon as well. We have a serious communication problem,which make me so tired.why I have to say some unuseless so frequantly,that is not environment-friendly.

In the final analysis,it is my mistake.Nobody force me to co-rent a room with her, it also because I cannot afford a single room at the beginning,it is too expensive.

The first time I want to get away is the time when the girl bought two bed, the room just contained two bed! How can I get along? Thanks to our colleague helped to change the terrible situation.But now I have to sleep in a damn declining.

The second time is when the lady’s boyfriend came our house ,one of those,after the typhoon night ,They got back from hotel in the morning. I really want to suggest her why not you two stay in the hotel whole day for it would not cost you more. You can do whatever you like there,I can do whatever I like in my space! They came back, they palyed games with notebook on her bed,which is vertical to mine,it is too close!Their discussion disturb me,maybe they think it was soft enough.
I wanted to nap at noon, but it was really strange for sleeping beside the two guys, and how can I get sleep when they playing game so happily? the noisy would kill me!
I had prepared a happy single hours for myself. But I have to leave because I try to ask whether they would go out and the male say no. the female said just play games.
Ok,I would leave.
I dressed myself, opened the door,and then close the door when tears coming out.If the world is big enough,why I can not find a corner belonged to myself?
Another day the lady asked me why not stay with them! They didn’t care! God bless me! Thank you for your generous! I just make a forced smile…

Third time is now when her boyfriend’s sister want to live with us for a while. How long? I do not know! But I insist to leave. If I chagrin myself once, I will chagrin all my life.

I want a single room where I can just face myself, where I can cook myself what I like, where I can make it tidy and clear, where I can breathe freely, where I can study in peace,where I can be whom I want to be!

But changing a room means I will live the lady who may think I dislike her,I discard her. Although I really want to get rid of her as soon as possible. I will be a bad guy who leave a weak, poor, childlike gilr to afford a single room, and she is my collogue,althouth I will give up this job sooner or later. In a short ,it is hard to tell her my thinking.
As I live alone, it is expensive, and it seems not safe. And maybe I will feel lonely even not recently.

I need to think it over and make a decent decision.