perfect life?no!

Posted by Yuka as Hot Cities

It seems I have just started a new life
As I started my postgraduate study career.
Some things remain unchanged in life
The same school, the same dormitory , even the same bed
While same others changed
Different teachers, different classmates, and different friends
So, it feels like life is fresh and familial at the same time.
That’s fantastic!
At the same time
I’m astonished to realize that
I’m no longer the boy wish everything looks like perfect any more
Now, in the just ordinary life
I could find the happiness and amazement I never found before.
Iust like this week
Nothing big enough happened
I have few classes, and just make few friends
Not much exciting, not much impulsion…
But, I felt a lot of happy.
Not that happiness for other people’s eyes
But that for the bottom of my heart.
I read the books which I like for several hours with no interruption
I watch the videos full of wisdom comfortably, and laugh with my soul
I even drink some kind of Chinese medicine with smile
Even though it tastes awful
I still fell good however.
Cause I know it’s helpful for my stomach disease
…
That’s absolutely impossible in the college life
At that time I dare not took any medicine
Cause I didn’t like people say: “Do you have some health trouble?”
So, I kept on pretending that my health was perfect,
While keeping my body been tortured by hurts day after day.
Now, I changed
I am willing to live a not perfect but true life.
I’m not meaning that chasing perfect is wrong
I just want to say please don’t lost ourselves in the chasing
It could let us forget about what we want truly
What we need truly in our life
That could make us lost our happiness.
Lots of man now choose to be cruel to themselves
For that “perfection”
They said that: “I should be cruel to be like a man.”
That’s ridiculous saying directly cause man lived ten years less than women!!
Now, too many men are complaining “fell tired to be a man”
Too many men are envying “how wonderful to be a woman”
I suddenly felt all that man deserve it
Cause it’s just themselves not others that
Set so many goals, create so many standard, cause so many pressures in their life
To chasing their “perfection”
They totally forget that the fireworks that chasing perfection
Could got one second, only one seconds’ perfection in the air
But at the cost of their hole life…
Life can not be like a firework
Cause the process is much more important than the “perfect” result!
If you don’t treat yourself perfectly
How could your life be perfect?
I once heard people says
“Too many men don’t know how to live”
I don’t believed it, and refuse to confess
But now, I realized it’s true
So, I am not going to keep refusing it
I am going to change, change my life
Cause I know for a better life
I should treat myself in a better way.